masonry  ©  aug. 24, 1998


 passion points it's cold finger at me
 laughing at he who is lonely
 fighting the torment of the lost
 the price i paid with such a cost

 love cracks it's cruel whip on me
 and brick by brick i answer thee
 much to gain but everything to lose
 so many mistakes, i no longer choose

 my vision is blurred from loves gone by
 so much pain, no more tears to cry
 soo bitter yet i still hope for more
 before the bricks are removed, gotta open some doors
 
 yearning for the very thing i dont need
 cause i dont enjoy watching me bleed
 love, can you tell me, just who are you
 why is there beauty & cruelty in what you do?

 love has been a double edged sword
 whether good or bad ive never been bored
 so on i go with my masonry
 barricaded from the pain put on me

 hating this job but protecting my heart
 trying so hard not to fall apart
 beauty laughs at me with its cruel mirage
 along with love & sex its a heartless menage

 but i can see beyond the smoke
 trying to ignore it's cruel joke
 hope is still here, but so is fears
 mixing the mortar with my tears

 i'll be ok, some distant day
 still have dues to pay
 wondering if the grief will cease
 right now i long for peace